Sadness...
Is when you review your site statistics... And realize that most of the hits to your domain come from checking your domain's webmail.
Actually. I guess its a good thing and a bad thing. I wanted a place to vent. But I also didn't want anyone to read any of these messages. Oh well. I guess I got what I asked for.
Ah... you know that it's been awhile since you've last posted anything to a web log when it takes you fifteen minutes just to login.
I am officially old now. I've gone from the days where each week held new excitement to the days where all I try to do is make it to Friday in one piece (two pieces is acceptable). I'm so old that even my memory is going... I got a reply to an e-mail that I sent yesterday to a friend - they didn't include my message in the reply - and I had absolutely no idea what they were talking about. Either I got a speeding ticket (which I don't remember doing), or I asked them if they wanted to see T3 (which I also don't remember doing).
On the brighter side, I'm again trying to keep my calendar aligned with summer breaks. I return to school (again) in August. Fortunately, I seem to be lowering the tuition each time I go to school... Actually, it seems as though I have come full circle on the idea of college tuition. When I was in high school, I attended a junior college ($). They moved up into taking classes at a University ($$). Then actually went to college ($$$). Came back to California for more school ($$). and I'm finally back down to ($). This actually begs the question of what to do next?
Actually. That seems to be the point of all of my entries these days. What to do next?
So many thoughts. So little time. (Its actually past my bedtime - which - much like the money that I pay for college tuition - has also managed to boomarang as well. I'm back to being in the 8th grade again... But this time. I can drink.)
Night,
Brice
--Oath of an Officer in the United States Armed Forces--
"I, (state your name), having been appointed an officer in the Army of the United States, as indicated above in the grade of Second Lieutenant, do solemnly swear (or affirm) that I will support and defend the Constitution of The United States against all enemies, foreign and domestic; that I will bear true faith and allegiance to the same; that I take this obligation freely, without any mental reservation or purpose of evasion; and that I will well and faithfully discharge the duties of the office upon which I am about to enter. So help me God. "
--Oath for Notary Public, State of California--
"I, ______, do solemnly swear (or affirm) that I will support and defend the Constitution of the United States and the Constitution of the State of California against all enemies, foreign and domestic; that I will bear true faith and allegiance to the Constitution of the United States and the Constitution of the State of California; that I take this obligation freely, without any mental reservation or purpose of evasion; and that I will well and faithfully discharge the duties upon which I am about to enter.
Notary Bond: Required by State Law to protect the people whose documents I am notarizing. $15,000 policy. (Minimum: $15,000)
Errors and Omissions Bond: To protect myself from my own mistakes and incompatency. $25,000 policy. (Minumum: $0).
Ah, the ironies of life. (I hope that I didn't offend anyone with this post)
Oooh Oooh Oooh. I finally managed to Noratize something for an actual someone. Too bad they had to tell me what exactly I had to do. (In my own defense, most of the time, when you have to notarize something, it is a matter of completing a form. This time, I had to notarize a letter. Which actually isn't that complicated... When someone reminds you that you have to sign the letter as well... instead of just stamping it.... doh!)
Since most of the people that gave me these thoughts/quotes probably don't know what I post to the web, I've decided to keep the authors confidential... But here's a short list of thoughts/quotes that have kept me going while being this tired.
"Don't reinvent the wheel"
"What are we trying to get accomplished here?"
"Deep down, underneath it all, we are all the same... Sure there are things that make us different, but for the most part we are all the same..."
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I especially liked the last quote. I guess that on many levels, it seemed like it was something that you can assume. Afterall, I just read on CNN.com that humans are 99.5% similar with respect to each other... but then again, I also read that humans are 99.5% similar to primates as well... Anyways, its an odd but comforting thought to know that other people have issues (maybe not the same issues that I have), but nevertheless, have issues as well. I think that I tend to loose sight of that fact way too often. Anyways (like I said in my last post). am tired. need rest. 'night all.
So tired these days. I think that I actually got sick on Thursday from being too tired. (I didn't even know that this was possible). Too tired to post. too tired to send e-mails. Even too tired to pay rent. I'm begining to think that I've succeded in burning myself out at work. (I think that you can define burnout as when you're too tired to do even the simplest of all things... regardless of how little time it takes)... But on a seperate (and somewhat contradictory level) - I managed to sign up for classes at Las Positas Community College for the Fall of 2003. It should be cool (I'm taking CPR) and the best part is that it's almost free ($59 after all is said and done)... (Its always good to know that my education is getting cheaper as a function of time... first 11K per semester... then 2.4K, and now .05K)
I hate being tired. yet not tired enough to fall asleep. argh.